aftermath | for thomas accounts
Feb. 16th, 2013 06:35 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
butfortheirvirtue[It had all happened in a rush, so fast that in his exhausted state he had barely registered what was happening until it was over. One minute Thomas was leaning over him, guarding him, and the next the door was being thrown open and their father was in the room, pulling Thomas away, throwing him to the ground so he could rush Chris out of the room and bolt the door behind them.
(He remembers vaguely wondering, in past weeks, why there had been a lock installed on the outside of Thomas' door.)
He slept for two days, only ever waking to use the bathroom and to eat (and even for meals he didn't leave his bed). It's dangerous, evidently, to feed an incubus during the days after his first meal from a conscious human. He's lucky (according to the internet, at least) that he was only out for two days.
He'd have preferred to sleep longer, honestly. Because being awake for the third day meant he heard everything that happened in the room next to his. He heard the scratching at the walls, the body thrown against the door, the constant chorus of please Chris please let me out feed me Chris please I can't stand it please Chris I'm going to die.
(it was hard, not to let him, when he heard that)
(even if he knew what would happen if he did)
Today is the fourth day, and the noises have stopped. It's safe, Chris has read (and Byron has confirmed), to open the door.
So he unlatches the door now, bearing a lunch tray (he figures that Thomas will appreciate food that isn't pushed under the door), and steps inside.]
(He remembers vaguely wondering, in past weeks, why there had been a lock installed on the outside of Thomas' door.)
He slept for two days, only ever waking to use the bathroom and to eat (and even for meals he didn't leave his bed). It's dangerous, evidently, to feed an incubus during the days after his first meal from a conscious human. He's lucky (according to the internet, at least) that he was only out for two days.
He'd have preferred to sleep longer, honestly. Because being awake for the third day meant he heard everything that happened in the room next to his. He heard the scratching at the walls, the body thrown against the door, the constant chorus of please Chris please let me out feed me Chris please I can't stand it please Chris I'm going to die.
(it was hard, not to let him, when he heard that)
(even if he knew what would happen if he did)
Today is the fourth day, and the noises have stopped. It's safe, Chris has read (and Byron has confirmed), to open the door.
So he unlatches the door now, bearing a lunch tray (he figures that Thomas will appreciate food that isn't pushed under the door), and steps inside.]
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Date: 2013-02-17 05:38 pm (UTC)(even if it's true, that he would have...would have hurt him)
(he didn't know what he was doing)
(and Chris refuses to abandon his brother for that)
He pulls him in closer.]
...no.
You couldn't control it, then.
And you can't live without it now. After the change. I've been reading.
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Date: 2013-02-17 05:50 pm (UTC)(no)
(that's not fair)
(he doesn't want this he--) ]
There--
There are... there are things set up. I know I can't go to one of the... proper places, not without being registered but-- but there are other places too, that are more discreet, that I could go to and--
I won't feed from you. I won't.
[ He shakes his head sharply to punctuate it, insistent.
(he won't feed from Chris again)
(even with the part of him that insists, still, that Chris is his)
(Chris is his and he claimed Chris and Chris woke him up and he's supposed to keep Chris with him because Chris is important and his it's important that he keep Chris at his side and keep his claim fresh so that nobody will take Chris away again but--)
(he can't)
(Chris is supposed to be his... his...
is there a word for it?)
(
incubi aren't supposed to mate, are they, but that's the only thing he can think of)(Chris is supposed to be that but Thomas can't do that again he can't) ]
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Date: 2013-02-17 06:05 pm (UTC)I'm not letting you go to a place like that.
If it's not official, it's not going to be safe. You could catch something, or...
[He pulls Thomas in closer, as close as he can with the tray still in his lap.]
No. You can't do that.
You can learn to control it.
[(maybe it's not just about Thomas' health, either)
(maybe Chris doesn't want him to feed from someone else)
(maybe Chris wants that again, even if he was hurt, the second time)]
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Date: 2013-02-17 06:11 pm (UTC)(no)
(Chris doesn't--
he doesn't understand) ]
I-- Chris, I--
I'll be careful.
But I-- I can't. Maybe I could learn but I might hurt you again in the meantime and-- and I won't.
[ He's practically balling himself up against Chris, small and trembling.
(he needs Chris)
(Chris is important and he needs him and the thought of not letting himself feed from Chris hurts)
(but he can't)
(Chris is important and he needs him and that's why he can't risk hurting him again) ]
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Date: 2013-02-17 06:29 pm (UTC)(he seems so small right now, so fragile)
(he needs protection)]
...is this really what you want?
[He shifts so his hair falls on either side of Thomas, forms a curtain between him and the scratched-up room.]
Because I don't...
[A deep breath.]
I can't think about you feeding from other people.
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Date: 2013-02-17 06:35 pm (UTC)But he leans in, instead.
Leans in and clings on tighter, wings folding in tight so that he can get in closer.
(he doesn't want this)
(but he wants to hurt Chris less)
He curls his tail in close, too. ]
I--
I won't hurt you. I won't.
I have to... I have to keep you safe, you're special, I can't let anything hurt you...
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Date: 2013-02-17 08:29 pm (UTC)(he can't let him go)
(can't let him leave and take from someone else)]
I...
Even if you did. Hurt me by accident.
I'd...
[He struggles with words.]
...it would be better than trusting someone else with you.
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Date: 2013-02-17 08:44 pm (UTC)(it's hard)
(Chris is holding him)
(and he doesn't want to let go)
(he's not supposed to let go, it hurts it hurts it hurts he's not supposed to try to leave Chris when Chris is what he needs) ]
No. No, I... I can't hurt you.
I won't.
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Date: 2013-02-17 09:12 pm (UTC)(he can't explain how important it is to him, that Thomas stay with him)
(how important it is that he doesn't just feed from strangers)
After a moment, though, something occurs to him.]
...it never hurt me before, Thomas.
Not even the first time I was awake.
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Date: 2013-02-17 09:19 pm (UTC)[ He pulls away completely.
(it hurts)
(his legs are shaking and it hurts and he's still hungry - both ways, when he's only had that one piece of bread to eat - but he pulls away completely and stands up from the bed) ]
I--
I can't.
I'm going to shower and then I... I need to go out.
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Date: 2013-02-17 09:33 pm (UTC)(he shouldn't have told him)
(he should have kept it from him)
(he doesn't know what to do)]